18 Years Ago

18 years ago I gave birth to a child that was not alive.  I hurt every year on this day.  Physically and emotionally.  If you really know me then you know I love my kids.  So damn much.

Sigh.

Thank heavens I was able to let that out just now ,because I thought my chest was gonna explode.  I don’t have anyone I can talk about things like that to.

Wish me luck today y’all.

Just a Tad Bit in my Brain, Good Luck y’all

At what point in time are we not putting a boot in someones ass?

RIP dearest James Foley.

Again, at what point are we not putting a boot in someones ass?  

I get peace.  I don’t want to be at war, EVER. 

But when do these ‘people’ have to act like human beings.  You know, like you and I?  

I heard there were 10 people held by these people.  Whether that is true or not, who knows.  It’s the media.   All I know is James Foley died.  In a very….well way.  That’s all I know.

I guess I am just angry. 

Let Us Explain It

Tonight or this morning which ever one works for you, I need to know how you explain mental illness and addiction to your loved ones.  Not only explain it to them but get them to understand what you are going through.

I am thoroughly frustrated.  Well maybe not frustrated but want people to understand.

I know how I feel in my mind but can no longer explain it.  I know how I feel in my body but can no longer explain it.  I’ve explained it out the ying-yang and no one gets it.

Okay good news!

I have a doctor’s appointment to discuss medication management which means a lot since I am on none and need to be for my bipolar disorder.  You have no clue.  Or maybe you do.  Who knows at this point.