I’ll Be Honest, I’m Frustrated

Who knew people who are having issues with mental health are so arrogant?  No seriously, who knew?

I’m going to call him Fred,  I’ve never met a Fred so I’m calling him that.  Fred needs a lot of help, I’m doing my best to be patient and point him in the right direction.  I want to slam my head in a door at this point.  If I hear ‘I’m not going to kill myself over this…’ one more damn time….

See Fred just discovered mental illness.  Fred has decided that he thinks the sentence “I’m not suicidal but…” is normal.  I’m not one for normal but c’mon man!  Damn you listen to me!

I’ve given all my links, phone numbers and even called for a well check up for him.  Hands up,  I’ve got nothing else.  I continue to listen and be gentle but damn it man,  fuck.  I can only stay up for so many nights in a row.

I’m selfish.

Who knew people were this much trouble?  No seriously, who knew?

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18 Years Ago

18 years ago I gave birth to a child that was not alive.  I hurt every year on this day.  Physically and emotionally.  If you really know me then you know I love my kids.  So damn much.

Sigh.

Thank heavens I was able to let that out just now ,because I thought my chest was gonna explode.  I don’t have anyone I can talk about things like that to.

Wish me luck today y’all.

Just a Tad Bit in my Brain, Good Luck y’all

At what point in time are we not putting a boot in someones ass?

RIP dearest James Foley.

Again, at what point are we not putting a boot in someones ass?  

I get peace.  I don’t want to be at war, EVER. 

But when do these ‘people’ have to act like human beings.  You know, like you and I?  

I heard there were 10 people held by these people.  Whether that is true or not, who knows.  It’s the media.   All I know is James Foley died.  In a very….well way.  That’s all I know.

I guess I am just angry.