Ever since January 1st I’ve been listening to every person in my face to face life talk to me about willpower and the need to quit smoking. I wish they would all stop. If I hear, “You can do it, you need to do it. Just use a bit of willpower” one more time I may explode and start taking everyone out. Okay that’s a joke so stop taking it so seriously but really I may explode.
But seriously…I’m the smoker and believe it or not I know what I need to do and believe or not; I have no desire to quit smoking. I know, I know….it’s bad for my health, it’s going to kill me, it’s no longer cool to smoke and yada, yada, yada. To be quite frank; I couldn’t give two shits about any of that. Do I enjoy smoking? Hmmm that’s a good question. I can tell you I don’t dislike it. I can tell you I don’t wake up in the morning feeling like shit from it. I can tell you also that I have zero amount of guilt for doing it.
I can also tell you that I can not stand ultimatums. If someone says to me, “If you want this help then this is how it’s going to be”, I have the knee-jerk reaction of saying, “Screw you! If I’m not good enough the way I am then so be it and you’re not worthy of being in my life.” I’ve done that before. When I was 17, my Dad told me that either it’s his way or the highway and guess what? I chose the highway. Sorry but that’s just my personality, it may be wrong, that may make you dislike me however that’s just me. Maybe it’s my issue with authority and maybe it’s childish but I’m just like that when it comes to someone trying to tell me how my life needs to go. So now I have to figure out what is the best way for me to deal with the ultimatums? What’s the best for me?
Has someone in your life given you an ultimatum and how did you deal with it? Are you like me and tend to see it as a slap in the face or do you follow along with it and do as they want from you?
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