When Charlie Was Funny

Found this on Twitter and I giggle every time I see.  Charlie Sheen has had his issues but he sure can make so many laugh.  Thought I’d share the laughter with you all.

Image found on @Twitter via @SoberStill

Assumptions & Judgements Pt.1

We all do it in one degree or another, we assume.  Remember that old saying; if you assume something, you make an ass out of you and me.  Or something like that.  Seriously though we all do it, or well I guess I mean, I do it.  The last time I bought grapes I thought, they look good, they’ll taste just fine.  I assumed they would without trying them, mainly because I haven’t figured out yet if it’s stealing if I don’t buy them but I still ate that one and I don’t think you can pay for that one lonely grape. 

We also do something that in my opinion is similar to assumption, it’s called judgement.  Here’s a common one in my life:  she tripped up the stairs, she must be drinking again.  Here’s another one:  she has Bipolar Disorder, she’s insane.  Do you see where the assumption leads to a judgement in those cases?  You can change the she to a he if you like.  I have told NO ONE except those that frequent here at The She Chronicles of my Alcoholic Bipolarized Mind, no one in my face to face life, not that there are any people who would care if I speak or breathe in their presence.  I don’t tell anyone because of the stigmas and judgements that come with saying it aloud. 

Since the Charlie Sheen debacle started I have heard the same thing over and over again from people in this neighborhood, “I heard last night he was Bipolar, I never thought he was INSANE!”  The last time I heard it I walked up and said “Who’s insane?” I already knew because I was being nosey and eaves dropping but my opinion is if you scream the damn word, I’ve got the right to butt in.  “Oh I heard Charlie Sheen was insane last night on CNN, he’s BIPOLAR!”  Here I am thinking in my mind that I could bust this person out on their damn stigmatized judgemental face right now but I didn’t, just nodded and said, “Hmmmmmm interesting, never knew he was.”

I need to make it clear right now that Charlie Sheen has never publicly announced he is Bipolar even with his #BiWinning campaign, this is only a huge assumption on my part.  I’m assuming this on what I have seen over the past few months out of him and I also need to make it clear that I have come to this assumption by what I have seen through the media so this assumption could be completely, utterly false OR it could be right on. 

I’m not perfect, I do still assume even though it annoys me at times.  I also still judge, which annoys me to a degree of anger at times especially because I judge myself harder than I do anyone else.

How about you all?  Are you judged in your life because of a mental illness?  Alcoholism?  Addictions?  Do people assume because you tripped up the stairs you must have had a few drinks?  Do you assume the grapes are good or do you eat that one lonely grape?

Video: Gupta breaks down bipolar II disorder (via Anderson Cooper 360)

I just want to pass this link to a video of Anderson Cooper and Dr. Sanjay Gupta discussing what Bipolar Disorder 2 really means. I’m happy to say Dr. Gupta is able to touch upon the thought of how this mental disorder has so much stigma around it and that sadly a lot of people don’t seek out help because of that stigma. I can promise you that I and the rest of the population in this world that have to experience this disorder first hand are not insane. We are regular people, who live a regular life and deal with that regular life as we can. Sometimes it’s a bit more intense but I can assure you insanity is the lesser of an evil when it comes to this. Also just a side note; Charlie Sheen isn’t insane either, he’s just trying to deal with life that’s throwing him some major curve balls right now and unfortunately isn’t dealing with it in as a graceful way as Catherine Zeta Jones. I wish all people with this disorder peace for just one day atleast.
Now then, Dr. Gupta mentioned something about a documentary on Bipolar Disorder, what’s up with that? Anyone have any ideas or know about this?

Editors note: Dr. Sanjay Gupta and Anderson Cooper discuss Catherine Zeta-Jones mental illness. … Read More

via Anderson Cooper 360

Charlie, Charlie, Charlie

Click on the photo and it takes you to the one and only AC360, it’s an interview with Anderson Cooper and Dr. Drew Pinksky about the video of Charlie Sheen that surfaced last night.

I keep coming up with things to say but they all seem too sarcastic for this blog post.  I have to admitt I’ve been just where Charlie Sheen is and just as ugly as it is on him, it was on me.  I’ve decided I’m not going to use words like hypomania or psychotic episode in this blog post because those words no longer matter in this topic.  There’s no links describing anything; just honest, raw emotions. 

Charlie Sheen is currently living in hell and I should be ashamed of myself for watching (no matter how close my bottom lip is to the floor, very huge gasp as I watched this video) and doing nothing.  I know where he is; I’ve felt it, lived with it, looked into the eye of the grim reaper, and thankfully survived.  Now whether or not I still have my soul is a whole other topic, some would say no.

Truth is I can’t help him, I don’t have the money or clout to be in his life, hell to be five feet from him and that’s fine for me but I feel horrible as I watch, shocked and dismayed, no one helping him just nodding and agreeing with him because well he’s Charlie Sheen. I feel completely helpless to watch him on the computer screen or tv and KNOW what it is he’s going through and even worst knowing how to help him but I can’t. I fear for his life just as I fear for mine if my up appears to last way too long.  And I’ve turned this into all about me, I sware my alcoholism has made me the most selfish woman around but it’s not because (atleast not in this case) I want it to be about me, this time I just can’t do anything other than watch this train wreck.  Do I continue watching it?  Hell yes.  Do I joke about it?  Not by myself.  No, not when I sit or pace by myself knowing what it is that is hurting and ruining him.  I secretly cry for him, plain and simple…I KNOW.

It has taken me all day just to come up with this small amount of bulshit,  I’ve cried watching this video.  Why?  It’s painful to watch and it’s painful to think this all could be stopped if someone, anyone just stepped in.  He no longer controls his thoughts, his soul, his sleeping, his eating, drinking, bathing.  Charlie Sheen no longer controls his own life.  He’s turned into a slave to his addictions and mental illnesses; a slave to his thoughts.  He believes he’s superman and he’s “WINNING” but sadly, he’s winning as much as the spider I slapped with my shoe an hour ago.  His brain has a switch in it, this switch has been turned on and it’s no longer up to him to turn it off because he lost the ability to turn it off, he’s lost the ability to live, to think, to act, to love, and to understand that what is going on is not alright.  He’s going to need someone to interfer and get him the help to turn it off. 

Is Charlie Sheen bipolar, schizophrenic, crazy, insane, psychopathic, violent, an asshole?  At this point I don’t care.  At this point I fear for his life and if his life ended like this, it would be a shame because Charlie Sheen is one of the best at what he does, he’s intelligent, at one point in time in my life I had posters of this guy on my wall.  If I could’ve stepped in a room full of people and him, I am positive I would’ve started sweating and had an orgasmic episode.  But now look at this hard while you watch the video, listen to his thoughts, realize that is not him.  He’s no longer Charlie Sheen.

Dearest Charlie Sheen,

I know, I know how it is. I’m sorry, I am so sorry that it hurts like this. Many of us care and are hoping you can stay strong and live through this.  We see you, we hear you, and we care about you.  We worry for you, we want peace for your thoughts, your head, your heart and soul.


I can only hope that this isn’t the end of such a wonderful person.

Really quick… I have to thank the ever suave Anderson Cooper of CNN’s AC360 for taking a break from Gadhafi and his murderous rants to touch on this subject.  I also thank; of course,  Dr. Drew Pinsky for his honesty, feelings and help with this subject.

Charlie and New Poll

Alright first off…new poll over there <~~~ vote!  Thanks.

Second off I firmly believe Charlie Sheen is as Bipolar as they come.  He’s a delusional train reck at this point and needs a 72 hour phsych hold before this gets worst, as if it could get worst.  Thankfully I’ve heard through CNN this morning that they have taken his  kids.  Sorry Charlie but it needed to be done and I have no clue why it has taken this long.

It pains me to listen to all of this, not because of it being Charlie Sheen, although he is a great actor and I think I would sweat profusely if I was in a room with him; but because it brings thoughts of my own delusions of grandeur that comes with my Bipolar Disorder and that mixed with alcohol and drugs is pretty much an abyss of hell like no other.  It pains me to think of how my mother was when I was a child, why I was never taken from her I have no clue other than the fact that nobody gave a shit what we were or weren’t doing.  I guess thankfully Charlie Sheen is in the public eye so his kids are now safe.

So what happens now?  Do we all just listen and watch the train wreck or do we lose interest at this point and not give a crap what he’s going through?  And he is going through a lot, I know he seems like an asshole and probably is but lets face it, money doesn’t make Bipolar Disorder, Addiction and Alcoholism any easier to deal with; he is still a human being.  I’m also curious that those whom do keep watching and listening to the wreckage, do they have bipolar?  I listen until a.) somebody gets him some fucking help and b.) he’s no longer the big news story.  Sadly I think b will happen way before a.

I’m hoping I hear soon that someone has reached out to Charlie Sheen and helps him through this dark, insane, worm hole.  Charlie we (well some of us) don’t think you are crazy, we think the effects of Bipolar Disorder, Addiction and Alcoholism are.