So yeah…the supposed doctors appointment turned out to be an appointment for an outpatient program for substance abuse and only if I go to the program will I receive the much-needed psychiatric care that I was promised by the hospital. I have absolutely no clue what the hell just happened but I know I walked in there hopeful but walked out feeling defeated, worthless, feeling like a waste of space. The woman whom I had to deal with for my ‘intake’ (I know! Whoa there, intake???) was the most unpersonable person I have ever had to deal with, she’s definitely working in the wrong field of employment for her personality.
So yeah…there wasn’t even a psychiatrist there to prescribe my medications. So now I’m down to four days left of medications and have no clue what to do. I’ve been brainstorming since 1 pm and have come up with nothing except maybe the ER might give me a prescription but I think they’ll just commit me to the same hospital I just got out of last week.
I’m confused and tired.
Now I ask you, what would a 20-year-old person do if they were in my situation and felt unstable, that their mental health wasn’t okay as is and then something like this happens??? I ask this to make a point, that it’s never been just about guns, video games or movies. It’s about no one out there helping, no one giving a crap. It’s about feeling desperate in your situation and just needing someone to turn to.
The mental health care system in the United States needs help badly, hell almost more than I do. Now THAT’S ironic.