How many of us have thought really hard about Trayvon Martin?  I mean really hard about him.  He WAS a child, George Zimmerman thought it okay to fatally shoot him.  Why?

That’s all I have folks on this subject.  I wish I could prove someone right or wrong but the truth of the matter is:  a child was fatally shot.  A child.


Misc Stuff…

I’m gonna misc stuff the heck out of y’all so be prepared.  You should probably skip over if misc bs bores you.

1.  Anyone see The Killing tonight?  Ummmm anyone know if there is going to be another season?  There must be another season because they never answered the damn question of if Callie is alive.  Damn them.  Damn them to the batcave.

2.  Anyone else looking forward to The Walking Dead as much as me?  I’ll leave it at that.

3.  I need help learning how to drive.  I can not keep being this cooped up.  Holy Batman!  That’s the way you spell cooped?  I literally have been trying to figure that out for five minutes.

4.  Hold on.  I’m trying to figure out what else I can talk about.  Quit being pushy.

5.  I hate laundry.  Seriously, I really do.  I think that I should win the 400 million dollar lottery on Wednesday.  You all think I should too, right?  Yeah…that would be cool.

6.  I should really be sweeping the floor but ummmm…naw.

7.  Did you know that has a Pachyderm theme but yet no Bat theme?  Do you know how many years I have been waiting for a Bat theme?  Yes, I just said YEARS!  I think it would be a great idea if they made one, so don’t y’all?  ~smirk~  Don’t you all want to email them about it?  Or just flood there message boards with that?  Yup….I think that we should.  I’ve tried tweeting them but they don’t listen or answer so I’m assuming that I need backers here.  Think about how awesome my blog would be with a Bat theme.  Thanks.

8.  Now…what just happened in this article? : FBI Pressures Internet Providers to Install Surveillance Software That’s the stupidest idea I’ve heard in a long time.  I mean we are talking watching what I do online!!!!  Naw buddy, back off on that.  We’re now talking Russian like intelligence, or North Korea.  I can’t do that.  They can’t do that.  I think it’s time for the politicians to stop back and take a breath.  I REALLY do.  We’re talking about total control over what we say and do online.  That’s not…okay that’s just stupid.  Someone show me a different article that says they aren’t going to do that.  Thanks.

That last one took a lot out of me.  For some reason the number 8 does that to me.

I think I have gotten about as misc as I can get.

If you have gone to here than…Thank you so much!

I love ya, man.

Bipolar Disorder Will…

…take every last emotion out of you.  It’ll break you until you don’t know why you exist any longer.  

After that it’ll…make you wish that the people who know you didn’t want you to exist any longer.

After that…you are happy you still exist.

Bipolar Disorder will take every emotion you’ve ever had and 100 fold it.

We need a cure for Bipolar Disorder, please.

What’s The Point?

What IS the point?  I mean when you have an addiction and mental illness that basically rule and discipline your life then what is the point?

You’re an addict to your ways.  You can’t escape the habit, the inferno in your heart that you have to do what you do everyday.  Does that make sense?

Then you have an illness that isn’t visible so no one can see or hear your pain.  You try to heal the pain by FDA approved medication but that just gives you more hell.  Like being a zombie all the damn time.  Not even being able to thing.  Losing your damn hair.  Just wanting darkness and hating the light.  Your skin blisters in the sun or peals non stop. You need energy but yet can’t get it because the medicine is made to bring you so far down you don’t compromise your life.

Not to mention the people in your life don’t get how extreme this silent illness is.  They just ignore it.  They just act like it doesn’t exist.

They just act like you don’t exist.

So I ask again, what is the point?

The point is…the sun, the moon, books, smiles, crying, anxiety, the smile from my 12 year old because she knows how smart she is, the laugh of my 8 year old because he thinks he said something funny, having great sushi, reading even though you feel guilty.

But yet…I have an addiction to alcohol…coupled with a mental illness.

I’m having a hard time finding freedom and happiness.  Once again, I’ve found the black hole.