I mean I don’t really understand half of what I feel. Ever.
I had a new neighbor move in. I contacted the neighbor who always does the ‘welcome to yada yada yada neighborhoo’ and said I think we need to do this for them. They said “GREAT idea. Lets do it. I’ll get in touch with you right away.” That didn’t happen and she welcomed them herself with other people. Honestly…I’ve lived here a little over 3 years and I’m really trying to fit in but it’s not happening. Stupid, right?
I’m just feeling alone and have been putting myself out there in face 2 face life , and well it’s not working. I don’t know one person that enjoys anything I do. I don’t know one person who even wants to hang out with me except….me.
Maybe I don’t even really care. Maybe I’m good with alone. Maybe that’s what I’m destined to be.
Maybe I really am stupid.