Have you ever just been going about your merry business and then out of the
blue…whamo…depression hits you like 140 mile an hour winds? All of a sudden you feel like everything has gone to shit, you have nothing, no one? You feel like everything you touch burns up and you ruin it? You feel like everything and everyone around you would be better off if you just weren’t there? And then all of a sudden…whamo…you want to drink and not just A drink or a night of drinking, no, you want to drink yourself to oblivion. Well that’s where I’m at.
I hate being alcoholic and I fucking hate bipolar disorder.