Went to my quack doctor yesterday. He decided that since it’s after the New Year that hey lets up my medication. Ummm I’m not liking this one bit. Feeling pretty loopy, nauseous, tired, dizzy and just plain blah. I’ve decided I don’t want to be Bipolar any more, I’ll just stick with being an alcoholic and a bitch for a week once a month but this Bipolar thing isn’t going to work out for me.
I am now suppose to take 500 mgs of Tegretol a day which is just a tad more than I was taking but that rise and him upping my Cogentin 5 mgs a day just makes me feel like I’m walking on marsh mellows all of the time but he claims that I just can not keep going with no sleep, he claims that without this rise in my meds that I’ll be either a drunk bum or in a psychosis by summer. He handed me my prescriptions and I just nodded and agree thinking that I’ll do what I want with them anyway. I have a hard enough time remembering to take my meds 3 times a day and now it wants me to remember it 4 times a day!
Anyway my point is I’m not going to be Bipolar anymore…don’t you wish it was that easy, to just decided to not have a mental disorder, emotional disorder or just quit being screwed up in the head…you know just snap your fingers and it all goes away. I think they need to do some research on that and help solve all our problems that way.
Snap…I’m normal. HA! I wish.