Well I itch and my Dad lets me know yesterday evening that I need to get in touch with my doctor ASAP because it is a sign of a problem with the medication and my liver. Okay before you say ‘well your Dad doesn’t have a PhD, yada, yada, yada.’ No he doesn’t but if there is one thing he does know about it’s an alcoholics liver and how medications can fuck with it. I already have a prescription from my doctor to have my blood drawn since the last time I saw him, I itched then but I didn’t have this darn rash. So I just need to ask my insurance company where I go to do this and well I haven’t had the umph to do it until I spoke with my Dad last night, I promised him I would take care of it ASAP just for him. I worried about going off the medication, I’m worried about the withdrawals, I’m worried that I won’t find another match for me with medication. This sucks. My doctor had told me that the itching, remember I didn’t have the rash when I last saw him, could either be A.) a side effect of the medication, B.) a reaction to the medication, or C.) the medication reacting badly towards my liver. So I guess we shall see.
A quick update on my Dad, since I’m already talking about him. I’m sure I have mentioned my Dad has diabetes, heart disease, alcoholism, and his liver, kidneys, and bladder are pretty much shot from all of his health defects. Well he’s had a stress test (for like the 20th time) done on his heart and that test told the doctor that he now has to go into the hospital to have his heart looked at a little closer so they are going to send a catheter something or another through a vein in my Dad’s leg and follow it up into his heart, see what’s blocked, what’s pumping and what’s not and if there is anything they can repair while they are in there. This test will tell us if it’s going to be medication management or open heart surgery for him. With my Dad’s heart working at about 25%, most likely we are afraid it’s going to be open heart surgery but I’m not jumping my guns either and will continue to hope for a much safer route of helping my Dad remain here with us for as long as he can. This is costing him a fortune! He has medicare and they pay diddly squat and I’m disappointed in the government for making my Dad pay out of pocket for this type of stuff, atleast pay more than $128 of a $2000 test, I mean geez this is my Dad whom served in the Vietnam war and who has paid his dues to this country in more than one way. Anyway, talking about that will just piss me off. So he has this catheter test done July 22nd and I’m waiting for him to let me know if my brother will be driving him or if I need to beg my hubby to take him. It’ll be hard because my Dad lives about 45 minutes from us and then his hospital is another 15 minutes from there and well he has to be there at 7am. I’m going to have to come up with a good arguement before I try to sell my hubby on this one. This is my Dad though and even if I don’t have to get him a ride there, I still want to be there for him, he needs some kind of family support system right now and since my mother isn’t going to go to the hospital with him, I don’t mind in the least to go and just sit by his side and let him talk my ear off about nothing in particular. I know I have said it before, my Dad is my Hero and you just can’t get any better than him, he’s been there for me on more than one occassion and even if he doesn’t ask for it, I know he needs someone there with him.
Other than all of that…not much happening. My daughter called and left a message so her Dad called her up and she talked with and her brother but didn’t even think to speak with me, she handed the phone back to my fil before I could have a chance to get on the phone. 😦 I miss her and I can tell that my son is going crazy without her here which is driving me insane as well. I hope I still have hair left after this week is over!
So that’s it for this morning and I’m now going to get myself a cup of Joe and then figure out my day, I haven’t decided yet if I’m going to take my medication today or not. We shall see.