Today just so happens to be my oldest sons birthday, cool birthday date huh? 7/11. Yup today he turns 15. Every year on this date I get bummed for obvious reasons, well okay they aren’t obvious to just the common person who doesn’t know anything about me. I started to hit rock bottom about 14 years ago so he lives with foster parents in another state. He’s not too far from me but I can’t just go pick him up if I choose and now that he’s older, understands more there is obvious conflict in his life when it comes to me so I don’t push myself on him and try to wait patiently for the times he does want something to do with me. Just a tad of a small side note, I don’t think I have hit my true rock bottom yet. No, that’s going to be an ugly, grotesque place that I haven’t reached yet. So today’s gratitude list is dedicated all to him!
~I have been far to lucky to have known my son. To have given birth to such a treasure.
~He’s the only one that can make me laugh at getting a bug caught in my mouth.
~He astounds me each time I talk with him and hear how intelligent he really is.
~I treasure each minute I have had with him that still remains in my mind for me to remember.
~I have known complete and uncondition love and support from him, I know what forgiveness really means.
All of these things I treasure, keep close to my heart and mind. I am so grateful today to have been touched by his presence, love, understanding, and forgiveness. Happy Birthday Son, I love you!