I give up! I’m officially throwing my hands in the air and just giving up. I sware there is some unseen force, spirit or entity that doesn’t want me to get better, that doesn’t want me to get treatment for my bipolar or even alcoholism. The alcoholism I can take at this point on my own but I NEED help with my other diagnosis, Bipolar. Upon receiving our information about payment into our Cobra Health Insurance, I decided I needed to call to check the status and find out what I need to do to get to a psychiatrist to get back on meds and finally put some of my horror at rest. Well I’ve discovered that I am paying for health insurance I can’t afford to even use, our deductible is so high that I can not at this moment afford to pay to go to the doctor so I’m paying out of pocket for health insurance that’s pointless to us. Oh and of course the deductible for any medications is also so high that I wouldn’t beable to actually pay for any prescriptions to get them filled. This is pointless and ridiculous! I’m sick of everyday have to be beaten down once again to this low point, only to wake up yet again to something else to have to deal with. I can no longer keep doing this. I’m so depressed now that I don’t know, I just give up! Luckily there is no alcohol around because I just want to be numb at this point.