It’s Going to Be Okay?

I lost it last night.  I drank way too much and the rollercoaster was awful, I’m sure I looked and acted like a train wreck.  A horrible thought occurred to me, since my neighbor was there, I wonder how many neighbors today (or soon) will be wondering and watching?  Oh sigh.

Today I have had to deal with the awful after effects and the humming in my brain is fierce.  Pychosis keeps coming to mind and I wonder how close I am.  On the 29th of this month marks the 2 year anniversary of me last losing it and ending up in the hospital, that can not happen this year, it just can’t. 

That’s all I can summon up right now, hopefull tomorrow morning I will be okay.  I keep thinking that one day I will wake up and be okay, that it’s all going to be okay.

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One thought on “It’s Going to Be Okay?

  1. Hello Bats0711,

    Bummer about your Train Wreck.

    After thinking about that for a moment, I wondered if perhaps Johnny Cash may have had different layers of meaning in his song that has that line
    “I Hear That Train uh Coming.” I bet he had a lot of train wrecks too.

    One time while he was stoned out of his mind in the back of a Limo, he decided he wanted a hotdog, and so he started a fire on the floorboard of the car and cooked him one.

    That’s pretty crazy, the things alcohol and cocaine can make a person do when they get a craving for a hotdog.

    Hope your having a better day today.

    http://darknightofthesoulus.wordpress.com/

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