I’m pretty sure mania is in my direct path. Today, I awoke, colored my hair black , (unfortunately the store didn’t have green hair dye or for sure I’d also have green streaks!) decided to walk two miles for the worst sushi ever, came home around one, ate the sushi and about 2pm crashed. I’m pretty sure rapid cycling is also a feature this time and am wondering if psychosis is also. I look around each day, walk in circles, pretend to get things done and at the end of the day everything seems more of a mess than when I started. The bills are unpaid but yet I have black hair so everything seems okay until about 10pm when the mania really starts and I have to toss and turn in bed for hours to try and sleep. Light seems too light, dark seems too dark and my moods are everywhere; not to mention most foods besides 15 dollars worth of crappy sushi seems too much. Now I have to go pace more and figure out what else needs to be said and how to say because I have a hundred different thoughts and not one will stay put for me to let anyone know.