I am feeling slightly okay and have been for two days. Although I am feeling okay I think I have turned lazy. When I try to complete any tasks like cleaning, I get tired so easy. Is it tiredness, laziness or boredom? I’m not really sure and I know my hubby doesn’t care to contemplate it, he just wants it to get done. But it’s not though so he’s becoming increasingly disappointed in me as a SAHM. He doesn’t have any type of mental illness or addiction and so it’s quite hard for him to understand and often thinks of it as a cop-out. I’ve offered to explain or give him reading material so he can understand more but it doesn’t interest him.
So now I’m thinking if I am so unhappy with who I am, why is it so uncomfortable to become someone else? Why don’t I try harder to improve upon myself? Laziness maybe.