I haven’t had a panic attack in over 18 months. Last night I found myself tossing and turning in bed, my throat felt like it was closing and the change in my heartbeat which has always been the first thing I have noticed with my panic attacks, started. So now comes the anticapatory panic and anxiety. For 18 months I was happy, content and easy going and in just a few weeks I have turned back into what I have fought for so long to not be. I am now beginning to think I am crazy. I have to make this stop, now!